Machine Head - Trephination lyrics

I used to wanna take a drill to my head
Let the pain out of the hole
I used to wanna cut the veins in my neck
Cool the blood boiling my soul
When I wondered, why my daily headaches thundered
Tried to buffer, pushing down the pain I suffered
Mutilated, feeling so humiliated
Can not wash the dirt off underneath my skin

There was part of me left far behind
When at the age of five yeahrs old
I had my innocence taken from me
Emptiness would fill the hole
Now a 2nd grader, thinking why I do not feel better
Why I am filthy, why the hell I feel so guilty
When drawing stickmen of pornographic men & women
Thinking all the time theres smth wrong with me

Everyday, for three yeahrs, from dawn ´til dusk a migraine
Would take me & break me
And it would cripple me so much that
In dreams, it would seem, with a hole in my temple
That I could probably make my headaches finally go away

Trephination
Trephination
The enemy, inside of me
Won´t let me free
Wants me to bleed

And after three yeahrs now my headaches wear off
For reasons not quite to me known
The acupuncture needles sticking my skin
Pushed them down as far as they would go
But now I am older & now inside my anger smoulders
From depression, to fighting taking out my vengeance
Consequences, now I would question during sex if...
"Is this how it f*cking feels or am I faking it?"

No longer the child that, you left there at the bart tracks
I am now at seventeen, left in an empty blankness
On drugs, with thugs i am thinking "Goddamn?"
I am gonna be a failure in the gutter passed out

Trephination
Trephination
This enemy, inside of me
Won´t let me free
Wants me to bleed

Now I am older & in this man an anger smoulders
Now I am thinking a hole in you is what I am seeing
Your depression, is the dent I kick in you in vengeance
Consequences are the pain I would give to you

I know that I am dreaming, but in this dream I go in
Go through it, & end it
And though I would never do it
I am killing you, hand on the trigger - pull it
Your final thought´ll be a bullet in your f*ckin´ head

Trephination
Trephination
This enemy, inside of me
I am now killing
To make me free

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